Dear Diary

Dear Diary: The Family One 

So as I write this I’m curled up with a cup of coffee and toast with lots of lemon curd on it. For the first time in quite a while I feel like I’ve had a productive week and can actually relax on a Sunday rather than having a constant feeling of anxiety gnawing at my stomach.

I’ve not really done that much this week so it’s kind of strange that I feel like this, maybe I’ve just come to accept that I can’t change certain things and that I’ve done the best I can- it’s out of my hands now.

Dear Diary: The Family One 

I’m talking about university. On Monday, Sheffield emailed me asking for my portfolio of work and I sent in two of my apps, and infographic and my image manipulation planets. Those are my favourite pieces and will hopefully impress the tutor in charge of my application!

I’ve been so anxious about my application but after sending my portfolio off I’ve calmed down a lot, I’ve done everything I can there’s no point panicking over it- it’s not going to help anything.
Hopefully I do hear back from them soon though, I’ll need to apply for student finance and as anyone who’s been to uni knows- it’s a right pain in the butt!


So what else have I been up to? Well Wednesday me and my friend Liz decided to have a takeaway and a catch up over at hers. It was a great night and I really enjoyed myself. That is, until the next morning. It seems that Pizza Hut decided to give us something we didn’t order: food poisoning!

Liz was a lot worse than me, I didn’t eat as much of the pizza as she did so we’re assuming that’s what was off. She actually had to come home from work because she was being sick so much! I put a complaint in and they say they’re investigating and will get back to me but it’s put me off eating there in future.

Even worse is that is that it’s set my eating disorder back off again! I’m hoping that it’s only going to last a few days like it sometimes does when I relapse as I can’t cope being that ill again. It took me nearly a year to recover last time, I don’t want to have to go through all that again, especially not over a pizza!
This week I’ve done something I’m really quite proud of: I’ve managed to sell three items on eBay! Now I know almost everyone does this these days and some of you may be wondering what the big deal is, but for some reason this has been causing me to have panic attacks!

Thanks for this one brain, love you too…

I’m not completely sure what in particular sets it off, I’m thinking it’s the posting part; worrying that I’ve put the wrong item in, have I got the address right, will it actually get there, what do I do if it doesn’t…you get the general idea…

Now luckily my auntie has worked in a post office for most of her life so she’s been a life saver! She’s talked me through everything and been really helpful, she’s not made me feel stupid about panicking and made me feel I’m overreacting. She’s even taken the first two packages to work with her and posted them for me! But the last item was bought on Thursday and Friday is her day off so I had to take it in myself. It’s strange but posting something (which I’ve never actually done before now) really gave me a boost, it made me feel like I could actually successfully adult at something!

That actually sounds quite sad when I read it back…Moving quickly on!


Yesterday some of my family came over to my nan and grandads to help clean up their garden. We actually live next door to my grandparents so we decided to go round and help too and it turned out to be a really fun afternoon! Our family isn’t really that close to us, they’re all Jehovahs Witnesses and we aren’t so they don’t have much in common with us. I don’t even have half my families phone numbers!

But since nan broke her hip and became wheelchair bound we’ve all started to become a lot closer as we help look after her and take some of the strain off my grandad.

This video is an example of just how daft we all are! You wouldn’t believe he’s 56! (Although it’s a shame he didn’t fall…could have got £250!) 

We’re going to be having a big fire in a few weeks to burn off all the wood and trees that were cut down so that’s something to look forward to. We’ll end up making a part out of it and having some food and something to drink knowing us!

Oh and I almost forgot: yesterday I hit 1,000 views on this blog!!! I can’t believe that 1,000 people have viewed this in the two months that I’ve been blogging! Thank you so much to everyone who’s been reading and I look forward to hitting many more milestones!

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  1. Becki

    August 14, 2016 at 1:48 pm

    Omg the only time I’ve ever had food poisoning was from Pizza Hut, about 3 years ago! I complained and they said that if I wanted to take it further, I’d have to send a stool sample?! Gross. So I haven’t ever been back since. Hope they manage to sort it out for you though! xo

  2. Jade Marie

    August 14, 2016 at 1:51 pm

    Omg that’s disgusting! It’s been 4 days now and still not heard anything 😒 I always thought Pizza Hut would be clean and okay to eat from but after this and what you’ve said I’m definitely not going back now!xx

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