Dear Diary

Dear Diary; The Stressed One 

As I write this I’m curled up in bed in my fluffy Harry Potter pjs with a warm Ribena, surrounded by tissues and fighting off a cold…probably comes from being rained on at least 3 times this week. Got to love a British summer! Anyway enough self-pity, how has my week been?

Well as you may have seen in my last Dear Diary post I had an interview on Monday…it didn’t go well. I had a panic attack at the thought of leaving the house on my own (not done that in over a year) and then, when I actually got into the interview, it turned out to be a group one. Personally I really think that they should let you know if it’s going to be one of these in case someone has a mental health condition that could be effected by situations like this! Well I ended up leaving after about 10 minutes but the person giving the interview was really good about it, and another lass left with me so I didn’t feel too awkward. To make myself feel better I ended up going to The Body Shop and buying some of their bronzing products (I’m sick of looking like a vampire!). I am already in love with them, just using two drops in my moisturizer give me more of a glow than a tan but for me this perfect. Having a bit of a tan has always improved my self-confidence and I’ve noticed I’ve been feeling better about myself since using it!

 

I also had my meeting with a local app design company on Wednesday. It went really well, Anna was so helpful and between us we managed to come up with a lot of different ways the app could be created and implemented. The quote I’ve got is very reasonable and I think I would be able to get funding together! However I’m so scared to actually get the ball rolling with it. I originally thought I was scared of failing but when I actually thought about it, I think I’m scared of succeeding. Sounds so strange to think that but its true. Theres so much I’m not sure on; would I need to register myself as owning a business? How could I get funding? How would I promote it? Lots to think about (and lets face it, worry about). By some lucky coincidence one of my favourite YouTubers Jazza has just been creating an app and has vlogged the whole thing! Its been great to see the process that has gone into making it, the ups and downs and then the launch; its been really inspiring to watch. He’s a really funny and awesome guy too and baby jazza is sooooo cute!

The rest of this week has just been stress to do with uni really. We’ve had our university deadlines moved at least three times this week, even though we’ve finally got things sorted out and now have till the 7th July to finish everything, we’ve all still being super stressed out. We’ve also got our end of year exhibition on Tuesday night and I can’t wait to start putting it together on Monday! (Pictures will be on my Instagram if you want to see) After that we have a portfolio presentation and then that is it. Done. Finished my HND. Can I curl up into a ball and start crying yet? I really don’t know what I’ll be doing after,for the first time in my life I don’t have a plan. There is a top up course in entrepreneurship (yes I did just have to Google how to spell that) and I’m looking into that as a way of taking my app further. However it doesn’t start till January so I’m going to have a bit of a wait. Time to think and do some research and get my life a little more organised hopefully.

 

For the rest of the weekend I’m just going to be watching DVDs (Deadpool is calling- it must be at least a week since I last watched it!) and working on a mixture of uniwork and promotional material for my app, which I will be showcasing in my end of year show. I need to look into ways of getting funding too and so far the only thing I’m finding is crowdfunding sites such as Kickstarter. Don’t get me wrong I’ve heard a lot of good things about the site and know of a company who created an app through this avenue alone! However I would need to carefully consider what rewards I would be giving out, how I would create them (physical or digital) and lots of other minor details…you know what, I think I might just go have a nap instead, I am ill after all, I have an excuse! Anyone else have these days where you honestly don’t think you can Adult today? I’m having one of those. Okay enough procrastinating, time to get my butt in gear and get some real work done!
Wish me luck!

 

5 Comments

  1. Sophie

    June 28, 2016 at 9:23 am

    I struggle with panic attacks, so can empathise – they always come at the WORST times, irony is cruel. You did the right thing to help yourself though, self-care is so important. Sending love xx

  2. Tinhy

    June 28, 2016 at 9:37 am

    Group interviews are just horrible ! I’ve never had one and I hope i won’t have any in the future ! It’s such a difficult exercise !
    I didn’t know TBS sold these products ! I recently bought the new scent for this summer, it’s piña colada and i just fall in love with it 🙂

    Take care xx

  3. mymentalhealth

    June 28, 2016 at 10:14 am

    Thank you Hun! They really do come at the worst times and people don’t seem to understand how bad they can be 🙁 sending love back!xx

  4. mymentalhealth

    June 28, 2016 at 10:19 am

    I hope you never have to either, they’re the worst think I’ve ever experienced I think!
    And they’ve just brought them out, the highlighter is amazing, one of the best I’ve ever had! I wish I could use the pina colada collection but I’m allergic to coconut! :'(
    All the best xx

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