It doesn’t seem two minutes ago that I was writing my goals for 2017 and now I’m watching my 5th Disney film of the day as I slowly eat my way through a whole box of Roses.
Life is actually pretty damn good right now.
True I’m currently growing a huge food baby and I can’t fit in half of my jeans anymore. Good job I’ve not done anything except wear PJ’s since Christmas Eve!
This year has mostly been a good one; I’ve had some amazing adventures with Chris, including going back to Harry Potter Studios for my birthday and going on holiday to Bournemouth for a week with his family. Plus I actually managed to achieve my goals for the year for the most part; I passed both my theory and practical driving tests (first time too!) which was my main goal for this year. Now I just need to get a regular income so I can actually buy a car…or more accurately the insurance; the average quote I’ve been getting is around £1,700!!
I also wanted to start posting more regular content, especially shorter posts. This is something I’ve really pushed myself to do and I think I’ve managed to achieve; I got nearly 2,000 views on my blog the first month I did this and since then I’ve averaged between 1,200-1,800 views a month which is more than double what I was getting before.
I know numbers aren’t everything but when you put a lot of time and effort into writing a post and taking photos for it, its always nice to know that people are actually reading and enjoying your content.
The other main goal I had for this year was to go self hosted, which I actually did a week after I wrote my goals. I use Siteground and honestly, the process was so much easier than I expected! I’m going to be writing a post on going self hosted in the new year, so I won’t go into all that here, but I will say that it was one of the best decisions I’ve made! True it is quite expensive (especially to renew) but the pros outweigh the cons for me.
One goal that I set myself that I didn’t achieve was to get a passport and go on my first ever holiday. The main reasons this didn’t end up happening really is that I don’t have the money spare to pay for a passport, let alone an actual holiday! Plus I’ve never really been interested in holidays; my parents have never left the country or owned passports and for the most part I agree with them when they say “whats the point?” There are places I would like to go, but only for a day or two and most of the time its places like Rome or Japan because I’m interested in their culture or history. Going to Spain for a week just to go lie on a beach or next to a pool has never had any appeal to me; I’d be bored after an hour! I’m not saying theres anything wrong with doing that, just that its not my cup of tea.
There has of course been a huge downer this year; we got the official confirmation that my nan has dementia. We’d already guessed that she had it as she’d been seeing things that weren’t there (little children, animals and random objects mostly) and had become confused and forgetful, but hearing it confirmed was heartbreaking. Seeing her get really confused and distressed over things that aren’t real and knowing that at some point she’s probably not going to even know who I am has been horrible; its only going to get worse too. The independent and sarcastic woman who I grew up with has disappeared.
I’m hoping that next year they’ll be able to put her on some medication that can help slow it down, but even if they can, I know that it would only slow things down. Theres no cure.
I’m not going to be making a lot of goals this year; instead I’m just going to write down the things I plan on achieving and doing. Sort of like a very public to do list.
Originally my goal was to graduate with a First but I now know theres no chance of me being able to do that. The course isn’t at all what I thought it would be, we have to do projects on so many things that I have no experience or knowledge in like coding, virtual reality and animation. It was implied that things like this would be optional electives but it turns out they’re mandatory. I’m a quick learner mostly but there are things that I just don’t understand and those three are top of the list! While I’ve been able to keep my average up at a 2:1, I honestly don’t think theres a way for me to get a First now. Instead I’m going to work on getting the highest marks possible with my last three modules and accept that I’m only going to get a 2:1. If I by some miracle end up with a First then I’ll be ecstatic, but if not then I think I can still be happy with that.
Now I’ve learnt to drive I really want my own car. Luckily Chris has his own car and loves driving, so is willing to take me to university and shopping when I need to (and when he isn’t at work) but I hate being I’m reliant on someone else. I’d love some independence and freedom, to be able to jump in the car and drive somewhere for a coffee if I feel like it.
There are two parts to this one; I want to save up in general, maybe setting up a separate savings account or ISA, and I want to save up for my first house. I still live at home with my parents and while this isn’t ideal, it does give me a safety net to save for my own house rather than having to get stuck renting. My parents have only ever lived in council houses so they can’t be much help to me on this, but I plan on doing a lot of research into it this year and hopefully in around 2/3 years I’ll actually be in a position to buy one. Maybe even sooner if Chris decided he wants to move in with me.
This one is a bit vague, probably because I’m still unsure on this myself. There are two options I’m considering right now; the first is to progress onto a Masters and the second is to try and get a job in social media/marketing. Getting a job and having an income is the most appealing of those two options, but actually getting a job is going to be pretty difficult. There is still a lot of discrimination around mental health in the work place and I worry that even if I did land a job, I wouldn’t be able to cope with it. It’s happened in two of my previous jobs and its really knocked my confidence in myself.
I might try applying for a few jobs after I finish uni in April and take things from there; if I find one I like and manage to get it, I can see how well I do and then decide from there. Either I’ll love the job and stay there (although I’ll keep blogging and work towards making it my full time job eventually) or I can wait until September and go on to take the Master degree. Either way I have options.
What are your plans and goals for 2018?
A twenty-four-year-old autistic writer and designer from Sheffield. Tattoo obsessed, animal lover, self confessed bookworm and eclectic witch.