I feel a bit strange writing this post as I don’t really like admitting when things like this set my anxiety off. I guess I still expect people to laugh at me and make nasty comments like has happened for most of my life.
I don’t think thats going to happen though, the blogging community have been so lovely since I joined and if this post helps just one other person then I’ll be happy!
So after a very long debate with myself, I decided to try selling some of my unwanted items on eBay. I’ve wanted to do this for ages (I have soooo much stuff that I don’t use anymore) but my anxiety has always stopped me. In my latest Dead Diary Post I said that I didn’t really know why this sets my anxiety off but after a lot of mindfulness I think I’ve figured it out. I want to write about it because other people might have the same thoughts and I want you to know that it’s perfectly fine if you do!
My biggest anxiety is over sending the item(s). Listing them and communicating with possible buyers is easy and I think I’ve done that part really well. What freaks me out is when someone buys something and I then have to send it- that’s when my brain wakes up and starts having a hissy fit!
Have I got the right address? What if it gets lost? What if the person isn’t happy with it and says I didn’t describe it properly? …You get the jist.
So far I’ve sold three items: A bra, a bralet and a foundation brush. The first time I was in a right state! I had a full blown panic attack which was terrifying at the time but I can laugh at now as it does seem a tad over the top!
I’d been so busy thinking about listing and promoting the items that I completely forgot to buy the packaging to send them off in…Auntie Jayne to the rescue! She works in our local Post Office and has been a life saver this last week! She brought me a large envelope and talked me through the posting options available to me, advising me on which is best to use and why. (I’m going to include some tips at the end of this post so I’ll go into this more then) She then took the package into work with her the next day so I knew that it had been sent off correctly!
The second time was only a day later but this time it was a little easier, I knew what to expect and I could logic out the anxiety. I went up to the post office, spoke to my auntie and packaged everything up there, it only took me 10 minutes- if that!
The last one I hardly battered an eyelid at doing, just packaged it up and sent it off. My anxiety is normally set off by the unknown, if I don’t know what to do or expect in a situation then I freak out. Big time. But once I’ve done it a few times and know whats expected of me then then I can manage my anxiety and completely the tasks pretty easily! My mum things its linked to my Aspergers and personally I think she’s right. I need rules and to have things explained I detail before I can do them. If that doesn’t happen- cue crippling anxiety and intrusive thoughts.
So if you’re thinking of selling on eBay but find the thought makes you anxious, I’ve listed a few tips which migh help you:
If you want to see what things I have left for sale then you can find them HERE (Got to do a bit of self promotion- don’t judge me!)
A twenty-four-year-old autistic writer and designer from Sheffield. Tattoo obsessed, animal lover, self confessed bookworm and eclectic witch.